All My Octobers

It seems everyone has a time of year that just works for them.  A month where you can look back over time and know that a lot of life has happened in that 30 day window for some reason or another.  Mine is October.

Most of the relationships I have had in my life started in October.  I can look back at first dates and first kisses that happened when the leaves were changing.  There have been a lot of motorcycle rides down highways lined with bright leaves.  There were countless trips to New Hampshire where I never packed enough warm clothes. There have been crisp evenings around bonfires with blankets and quiet rainy nights inside meant for up all night talks.  I even met my husband in October and we married in October.  Every October I welcome these memories that normally lay dormant in my head the rest of the year.  I can look back and reflect on happy times and see how far I’ve come.  The month is normally quite busy for me, every weekend full of something yet, I find the balance I tend to struggle with throughout the year.  I actually feel like I slow down more.

Last October may have been my busiest yet.  I visited blog friends in Chicago, I went to fall festivals and traveled to Mexico to get married.  This first year of marriage has absolutely flown as it all feels like it was yesterday.  On the other hand, there are those friends I miss dearly and I can’t believe it has already been a year since we have shared laughs and drinks.

You know what they say, the older you get the faster life gets.  Since my divorce I have always felt the need to hurry up.  I didn’t know what I was always hurrying towards but I think it was the chance to catch back up to the rest of the world.  Date, marry, build a home.  Well, it has all happened.  So this October I’ve been trying to not hurry up so much as I have been trying to stop and breathe in life slowly.  I’m enjoying how far I have come and where life has placed me.  For once I’m okay with the silence.  This October has given me some peace within myself and that is something I didn’t know how bad I needed.