I haven't needed this space in some time. One day I just ran out of words that needed to spill out and so instead I just come back here to read your words. I cheer you on and watch as lives continue to unfold, just as mine does. Watch children grow up in pictures, as [...]
Category: Miscarriage
What you don’t see in pictures
We sat on the back deck last night, in the dark, soaking in the last night of summer. I sipped a glass of wine, my husband smoking a cigar, the baby monitor on the table between us. I had that pressure building in my chest all day. It started with those memory photos that Facebook [...]
Life of a fertile
A few weeks ago my day care provider told me she was pregnant with her second child and quickly followed it up with her social media announcements. To be fair, she wasn't joking, she shows very early and it is hard to keep that a secret on her. Personally, I still would have kept it off [...]
Emotional Announcements
When I got to work this morning there was a baby announcement in my inbox from another co-worker. A husband and wife, proudly standing with their twin boys, and a sign that told the world they were expecting. Why the hell is my initial reaction every emotion in the book? I am seriously happy for [...]
23 Weeks – Letter to My Baby
Dear baby girl- (AKA, baby nugget), Don't worry, we do have your real name picked out for you but as far as the rest of the world knows, you are baby nugget. A word that we use for most things and it just so happens it has worked for you as well. The other day [...]
When Does the Feeling of Infertility End?
For most couples who endure infertility, the road is a long and winding one. For some, it may end once they receive that positive pregnancy test. For others it is getting that first confirmed ultrasound, making it to week 12, holding their newborn in their arms or anytime in between. For others it may not [...]
20 Weeks – Confession from a Pregnant Woman
We had a long, tough road to get to this point in our lives, 20 weeks pregnant, halfway done. I am very grateful that I was able to finally get pregnant and we pray for a healthy baby at the end of this pregnancy. However, I have to tell you the truth, a truth I [...]
Irrational Fears
After my miscarriage I had a lot of issues with fears over my Husband. I would often panic that he wasn't going to make it home, get an accident, suddenly die in his sleep, etc. Until he was safely home every night, my mind would run rampant with worst case scenarios. I don't know where [...]
Through My Mistakes 