For years now I have had people tell me I should write a book about our journey with Rebecca. What we went through when we were younger, how everything progressed over the years, and where we have landed now. If nothing else, to show people how the system can really be, how tough it is, [...]
Category: Rebecca
How many kids do you have?
Yesterday I took Cora to the park and a mother pulled up shortly there after. Her 8 year old son jumped out, she left the car running and soon followed him. Eventually Cora realized there was a big kid to follow around and the mother and I started chatting. She asked how old Cora is, mentioning her [...]
My World Has Been Broken and Few Understand
I have struggled to write this post. Starting, stopping, deleting, and walking away. I have words I want to say but I just don't know how to say them or where to start. With Rebecca I have never known where to start. She is my own messy story and for those who don't know how [...]
This is where we are at today
We haven't seen Rebecca since the last week of May. This week things that have been spiraling out of control with her and have hit an all time low. I fear they will go lower though. There is so much going on that I can't write about it, I don't know how to explain it [...]
Adulting through the bad days
There are so many times I want to sit down and write. I stare at that damn blinking line and blank screen. I want to say how shit my day was or how exhausted I am or how frustrated I am that day because no ones life is all rainbows and butterflies, including mine. But [...]
On Living In the Moment
My friends have come to visit on a regular basis. They have made the drive from the city or from the next town over. They make the trek up my road, that is hardly ever plowed and is merely a skating rink at this point. They ask how I am doing and the ones that [...]
38 Weeks – Perspective on Parenting
As the days drew closer and closer to our wedding date, three years ago, people offered up all sorts of advice. Some I found quite amusing seeing as I had already been married and divorced. My Husband started to get annoyed by some of the age old comments and advice and was ready for the [...]
36 Weeks- The Guilt Factor
I've heard the story a million times, women who started to worry about their older children right before their new baby was born. Call it what you will, the guilt factor, or the knowledge that life will never be the same for them. I never quite understood this. I would always listen to the Mom's [...]
Through My Mistakes 