I have always been one of those who really gets into the Christmas season. Once everyone leaves Thanksgiving night I declare it "game on" and I'm full on into the songs, decorating and shopping. I love everything about it and always try to really slow down and enjoy every bit of it. Until this year. [...]
Tag: infertility
And where do we go from here
I was ready to vomit in the parking lot of the hospital Friday. My nerves were getting the best of me when we were merely there for a last appointment with my OB/GYN. As my Husband reminded me, what could she possibly say that was worse than what we had already been through? True, just [...]
Chromosomal Testing
The day we found out our baby's heart ceased to beat, we sat talking to my doctor. She quietly spoke about options and other things that all seem a bit blurry now. In the midst of that she did mention chromosomal testing for our butterfly baby. I remember at the time I just nodded my [...]
Butterfly Baby
Today was my first day back to work. A week from the day we heard the news. I made it until 2pm and then excused myself to go. My body was aching and I was mentally exhausted. I gave it a good go. I gathered the wine bottles people had dropped at my desk, the flowers [...]
Our Thursday of Nightmares
I could tell you I knew as I was driving to the hospital. That feeling you just get in the pit of your stomach. My Husband and I sat so carelessly in the waiting room, laughing at videos on Facebook. I almost feel stupid about that now. Sipping our smoothies, thinking life was just fine. [...]
July 23, 2014 – The first half of the day.
There is this funny thing that happens when you spend months trying to conceive. You will spend every month noticing the tiniest symptoms and will try to mentally turn them into pregnancy symptoms. At least that is what I have been doing. I would blame this or that and eventually take a pregnancy test which [...]
Clomid-Month One
My regular OB/GYN took me as far as she could on my infertility journey before handing me over to the fertility specialist in her office. The specialist and I met for the first time a few weeks ago and I love her. We went over the past 20 months of what we have done and the [...]
Support Help
In the past few months I've begun to realize how going down this infertility road is a lot like my divorce road. There are these odd similarities that I would have never thought about. One of them is the elephant in the room. When I was going through my divorce some people didn't want to acknowledge [...]
Through My Mistakes 